Today, I found out that I have really deep, strong emotions.
It's kinda interesting, really. Most of the time, my mind deals so much with logic that I sometimes completely forget about emotions. In those times, I even convince myself that I have absolutely no feelings, even for someone I honestly must have fallen really deeply in love.
Then I see her spending time with other people (including some guys), and immediately there are these extraordinarily profound feelings of jealousy. Extreme paranoia that she might've forgotten about me completely.
When those feeelings hit me, it felt like...somebody tore my heart apart. Not half of it, but rather...all of it. Like my heart was in complete pieces.
I guess that's love...and from what I can tell, it's a very rare emotion that I don't think many people feel.
On one hand, I feel lucky to know what that feels like. On another hand, it's so dreadful when those feelings come, because 1) they're so painful, and 2) I don't know how to deal with them.
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